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I tried, and i still fail,

2012-01-12T23:31:00.002+08:00

i pretty much failed to suck up my feelings tonight.
i was feeling pretty good the whole day, until i came to a sudden realization that i wasnt good enough, that i got kicked out, sort of, somehow.

it has been a tough decision for me to make, as i know this year's not gonna be easy on me.

ive missed what i cant be doing it anymore, i give up.

I live a pathetic life,

2011-12-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

went for dinner today with a family who will be migrating to America soon. we talked a lot about courses offered worldwide. before that, after struggling for weeks, i finally made my decision to take up businees already, and suddenly everything just went *poof* ! i know business can bring me to a better position in life with stable jobs and salaries, BUT PLEASE TELL ME WHICH PART OF ME LOOKS LIKE A BUSINESS WOMAN TO YOU?!

i've went for consultations already and i still dont have a secure answer on what i would like to study YET! my whole life, ive never thought of studying business! if you ask me, i really want to study either MUSIC, FASHION, PHOTOGRAPHY, HOTEL AND TOURISM MANAGEMENT, EVENT MANAGEMENT, so basically arts. i think God has a purpose for creating me with creative art skills, but too bad i dont think my parents even appreciate it.

do you know how it feels like to have business minded parents? what they think only is MONEY MONEY and more MONEY! seriously i have zero interest in business! to satisfy them i choose sthing similar/ related to business and sthing i like - PR and MARKETING, mass comm! they dont know i dont like it but to please them i have to choose this! i know because everything i choose they'll have to comment! i dont dare to tell them i would love to study fashion, photography/ even event management because to them i have no future studying these! they think its a waste of time and money ..

since young i have to depend on them. if you dont know, i was supposed to enter CHS, but then after my mom heard " advices " from my tuition teacher, she decided to send me to SA. i dont think my parents know how much i suffered there! i never liked that school .. she dont know how much i suffered but i have to endure because its her choise and it was part of Gods plan as well.

now i have to choose between sthing i like and sthing my parents like! sthing i like cant bring me anywhere or earn me anything whereas sthing i dont like which can earn me a living!

when my parents friend told them about people she know whos famous and earning well, they listened as if it hit their heart, but it was nothing .. those who studied arts can earn well too!

they have to decide everything .. so i'll let it be! they can decide whatever they like, i care less about it anymore!

im living as if its their life.

and i thought it was my life, i have a chance to hold some major decisions in my life, end up being wrong ..

What a surprise,

2011-12-11T23:28:00.004+08:00

done! i shall plan another outing with my family! wanna go makan seafood! or go penang! or spore? :o

nights loves xoxo.

hehehhehehhehehehhehehhe! :p

nice present leh! :p

SEE SEE SO TOUCHED UNTIL CRY! T.T

hahahhahah, jokes. she was laughing while i snapped this lol.

HER CAKE!

after we ordered like the 4 dishes, charmaine said: " actually right, this restaurant specialise in pork .. " cheeyan: " cheh, dont say earlier -.-" " charmaine: " cant you see the pictures of the pigs on your right?! -.- " us: " ... "

but it was really cute hehehehhe! sorry NON HALAL!

FISH AND CHIPS * more like fish and wedges* BUT WHO CARES! it taste good too! i took like few bites only, i ate all the veggies lol.

MACARONI AND CHEESE BUAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA and salad. this taste good! :D

Secondly, this is some fry chicken with mashed potatoes and peas! and if you're wondering where the mashed potato went, its not because we finished it before we got to snap a picture, but IT'S COVERED BY THE GRAVY! -.-

First, we ordered DOGS FOOD lol, i wonder why they name it as such. But it was good it was good, its fries with some sorta thick mushroom gravy and cheese, recommended by charmaine. i tell you ah, charmaine so potong steam one! went there and fell sick, her tummy wasnt feeling really well so she didnt really eat .. AT ALL! :"(

SO YES, LETS START FROM THE BOTTOM TO THE TOP AITE! READ IT FROM THE BOTTOM TO THE TOP K, NOT FROM THE TOP TO THE BOTTOM, hehehheheh, special a bit :p

anyway, today, oh wait, arent you happy i have pictures in this post, LIKE FINALLY RIGHT ugh, ahahahhahahah, yes, im happy too!

we planned a surprise party for charmaine, one of my best friend, today! and had some transport problems cause my parents was suppose to send me to the lrt and i should take it to KJ station and chee yan will pick me from there to the restaurant, and like after telling my parents about it, they said okay and they left me while i was bathing -_-

SO MUCH FOR SENDING ME TO THE LRT STATION RIGHT ..

so when i gave up and went back to bed, sinyin called me and told me she'll be coming to pick me up. so her senior came and sent us both to the restaurant! :D

the name of the restaurant is - BETTY'S MIDWEST KITCHEN!

food there was good and price was reasonable! good thing we were early or the place will be fully booked! people kept coming in and they're willing to like wait for half an hour for a seat! O.O

SO NOW LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING! :)

*remember read from the bottom to the top!

Food obsessed,

2011-12-07T11:02:00.002+08:00

oh hello, im back after being MIA for months! heh.

hohohohohohoho seriously you people should throw a party for me, hahaahha, kidding kidding! :p

ive finished my spm last tuesday, and besides chemistry and biology i think i did well, i think!

pretty bored now :(

well im planning now, which college/uni should i enroll, goin for education fairs, and open days, hope to find something i have interest in, no point doing sthing you dont like right.

ive went gym, started exercising again, i need back my muscles, and shooo fats! >:(

besides im working under cheer aspirations as a trainee coach, YAY! :)

its sthing i like to do, coaching, hehhehehe, especially when im assigned my own team, i miss dstarz so much, too much! its a whole new team, i can only watch and support them morally, and physically!

btw i went for awesome practice yesterday, omg, can die!

theyre so good! and there was this girl who did round off backhandsprings and backtucks, and my whole jaw dropped watching her, literally. already she's small in size, she's too good! and i got to know she's a national gymnast and coach, that explains my curiosity ..

okay i literally died after jumps lol.

Darren went for practice too, and met bryan like after 5 years, old primary school friend! haha, my classmate with the same interest! O.o

so now, im coaching and and should i like work in starbucks or sthing?

i have another 3 to 4 months or so, so now what? :S suggestions?

OH YES PEOPLE, I HAVE A NEW ADDICTION TOWARDS NAAAAAAANNNNNN!

to you who dont know what that is ill give you this face -_________________-""""" HAHHAHA kidding! i'll explain :)

its some indian bread which taste really good, and not fattening ( those girls who hear this sure happy dao .. )

its taste really good and im not lying! oh well it depends on which restaurant you go to also lh :p

theres this one restaurant near my house, and its really near i can walk there! it has the best naan so far ive tried! they gave me some curry with mint sauce and it costs only 3 bucks! :D

ehhh, very super nice i tell you!

okay naan looks sthing like the picture above! :D

and one of the workers there appears to be a friend of my dads, so he gave us like plenty of food, and i came back home bloated! *___*

but it was worth the try, he gave us stuffs i never knew it existed o_o dont worry its not roti canai or roti telur or whatsoever, i know those k -.-

those i never tried before, really indian cuisines! IT TASTE SO GOOD LAH!

HEREBY I PRONOUNCE IM A LOYAL FAN TO THAT PARTICULAR RESTAURANT AND ILL VISIT THE RESTAURANT AS OFTEN AS I CAN, I'LL SERVE THE RESTAURANT AS A LOYAL CUSTOMER TILL IT CLOSE DOWN! ( choi choi choi* ) it'll never close down!

okay thats all for today, eh really very super nice k i tell you :p

OK BYE.

#35 it's been awhile,

2011-11-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

oh hello.

im kinda bored. nope actually very, wont be going to school tomorrow, so i shall do a little bloggie and wipe off the dust :p

okay .. my mind is kinda blank now. so a small post first, big one tomorrow!

MEET ONE DIRECTION!

they're pretty cute arent they, sigh uk boys, dont break my heart :p

i like the fact that they're natural. they sing very naturally and they enjoy singing really much. i can see it by the way the sing on stage infront of millions!

Standing infront of millions, they blindfolded their emotions and just gave their best. it's a competition, but i think what matters is their friendship.

Loius, Zayn, Harry, Liam and Niall.

and this guy below, he's Zayn Malik, cute guy with charisma, heheheh. seriously look as his breath taking stare. he's of parkistan descendent! and his british accent, *faints* hahahahah.

But Liam and Niall is cute too! and Harry sings, loius? weird personality i would say lol.

I JUST LOVE GUYS WHO CAN SING APPART OF BEING CUTE! :p

okay i dont want to crap anymore, eyes half closed, and mind's swaying to dreamland, k, goodnight people! :-)

LOVE YOU AND GOD LOVES YOU TOO! <3

Our hope, our strong deliverer,

2011-09-25T11:18:00.002+08:00

#nowplaying everlasting God - New Life worship.

the most common question asked, " is God the only way? "
it is written in the bible, He is the way, the truth and the light. Whoever believes in him shall have eternal life and not perish.
we as humans, live on earth. earth, being considered as our temporary homes. we are in this world, but not of this world. everything we have on earth, in the end wont be able to be brought with us to heaven or even hell. on earth, wealth, health, treasures wont be brought with you, all these are just temporary goods, which provides temporary happiness and joy to humans.

i tell you the truth, God's the only way to heaven. the only way is to believe.

claiming yourself to be a christian, but not going to church, not serving, not growing in the holy spirit? going to church doesnt make you a christian. Standing for what you truly believe in, not being afraid of facing persecutions, growing your spiritual life, this is what being a true christian really means.

the only fear christians face is persecutions. when you face persecutions, are you still willing to stand firm and hold onto what you truly believe? when people ask you why did you choose to be a christian? what would you answer? " oh because my parents are " ? or " i was forced to, so i did " ? " oh i didnt know, the pastor told me to say some sinners prayer, and i did, and voila, i am one now " ?

this is what i will say : " i believe in what i stand for. My god is almighty and i experienced him own my own. I believe he's real. I can hear him talk to me. He answers my prayers. He grants me peace whenever im in fear. He protects and covers me and my family from danger. He's my hope. He's the everlasting God, same yesterday, today and tomorrow. I believe in him cause he sacrificed his one and only son Jesus to die suffer, persecuted, tortured and died on the cross, and ressurected 3 days later! "

what bout you? :)

Why does our good God allows suffering?

2011-09-24T09:50:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought why.. if there's really a God who's almighty, who loves us so much, who can stop all miseries, why are we still facing sufferings?

If he loved us so, why must he see us suffer? why must he see us normal humans bearing such pain?! HAVE YOU EVER WONDER WHY WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH PAINS WHICH ARE UNBEARABLE, and while we suffer, our good God only watches?

if only you read the bible, you'll understand why.

i had a great time at LG yesterday night, everything went well. first we had a short sharing from each of us on ' a past event, a bad one, which made you remember and be aware of it, and not to repeat it again. ' many different stories were told! and indeed i was amazed :') , then P&W led by Richie and Billy - the yii brothers hehehe, then sharing by teongseng!

i enjoyed the sharing the most. Bill shared a story, about this movie name KNOWING. i wanna watch it after my spm. It has a stupid ending, but uhh k. We learnt that, in all things, God has a purpose, we're not in this world by coincidence. In everything we do, God has a purpose for us :)

We, can never blame God and question God. Well, who are we to do so? Conclusion, God allows suffering, firstly, so that His name will be glorified and be known throughout the world. Secondly, so that the world may come to know Him.

Then soe kian shared something with us, a really good and touching story.

There's this brother from our church who's suffering from cancer, leukemia. Despite having to go through chemotherapy which is really torturing, imagine having yourself inject with millions of needles for hours, God the pain, just unbearable. He persevere. He still comes to church. He's a young Christian. But he stands for what he believes in. He went for counseling before going for his last chemotherapy. The consellor told him this is his last chance, after this last one, it's either he get healed or he'll continue suffering from this death causing sickness! And he told the doctor he's gonna go for it! So he told 3 leaders of out student group what the counselor told him, that he only have a 50 50 chance, and he's gonna go for it! When asked why he answered this :" out of the hundreds of leukemia patients, I'm the first who gets to go for this operation, so I'm gonna go for it! I believe God has a purpose and he gave me this chance, so I'm gonna treasure it! But when I recovered, can I requests a big birthday party?" of cause the 3 of them answered :" um, YES OF CAUSE, it's easy, we can plan one for you, no problem!" and he replied :" and the second requests, when I recovered, I'm gonna stand infront everyone to testify Godd goodness, and how he has healed me!"

The faith he has, to over see himself being cured even before going for the operation really touched me. How can anyone do such a thing? He's not even healed, haven't even went through the operation yet, but yet forsees he had been healed and totally free from leukemia!

Another story.

This jr. Pastor whos wife just gave birth. And so the doctor told him :" I'm sorry, but your child is down with down syndrome. " immediately his heart fell! Questioning God why? Why does this happen to him. He went and look for his sr. Pastor, and the pastor showed him a verse from the bible :" in all things, praise him!" he read and read and read the verse a few times and he understood. It's Gods will to grant him with a down syndrome child, what has been done has already been done, there's no turning back. And so he went to the hospital and meet the wife. His wife was crying, asking why won't the nurse show her her own child. The jr. Pastor told her :" we've been blessed with a down syndrome child, it's Gods will." she cried and of cause questioned God why. And the jr pastor again showed her the verse in the bible. She read, and made a call to her mother. There's this one nurse who hated Christians. Who wanted to see Christians suffer. And she heard the conversation between the pastors wife and her mother. She told her mother :" we've been blessed by God with a down syndrome child, and it's Gods will." that week 70 doctors and nurses came to the church the jr pastor was and 30 of them accepted christ and came to know God! Can you imagine just because of this one down syndrome kid, 30 lives were saved?!

Ponder upon thing happening on this earth, all the sufferings faced by the world, it all concludes with this, God still loves us, no matter what, he has a purpose, and it's yet to be revealed :)

In times of suffering,

2011-09-17T23:41:00.001+08:00

Many things hit through my mind today, really a lot.

Firstly, I went googling for colleges. Why? I mean I can do that after spm, I still have time. But one sentence said by my leader really hit & woke me up. She asked : " if you have a choice to go back to the pass, to stay in the present & to travel to the future, which would you choose? " I answered : " of cause I would love to go back to my past, my primary times, where I had so much fun, memories, joy .. " and someone else answered this, and he was the only one who wished to stay in the present. He said this : " there's no way you can go back to your pass, or even find a possible way go travel to your future, I rather stay in the present and cherish every single moment I have. " God, what was I thinking. I felt stupid to think of going back to the pass! It's true, there's no way I can go back, why don't I cherish everything I have now and move on without regrets? This really hit me hard. Another sentence said " you only have one chain in life, you either live it to your fullest of let if go pass you with regrets. You only have one shot for everything, one shot for pmr, one shot for spm, after you sit for it, there's no way you can go back regretting what you've done. You either give your best now, study all you can and give yur best shot, and when you gave your every hardwork on that paper, and end it with a good feeling, so undescribable. " it's so true, what have I been doing? I really need to stay focus! It's just another short 2 months! I can do this! There's no way I would wanna disappoint my parents, teachers & school, friends and most of all myself!

Secondly, today's service really hit me too. A video clip of things happening in this earth was shown. As I watch people in the video suffering, getting hurt, crying, god, I was holding back my tears. I am here, living well, when things as such are happening. The earth is dying! People suffering from wars, from diseases, from cruelty, from famine. I'm living here, with shelter, with education, with food, and others are out there suffering. My heart goes out to them. I really wanna help. what can I do? I'm just a little person, what I can do might not be enough. But I wanna try. I really wanna go out and help & change the world. It might seem to be impossible, but I really hope what I can do, even if it's not much, I really wanna go out doing volunteery work, feeding the poor, those in hunger, help those in sickness. " in suffering as such, does God really cares? If he does, why isn't he helping? " questions as such arises, but we all do know the answe, he does care. In fact, how his heart aches seeing his people suffer. Why God let suffering happen? Why does he want to see us suffer? It's not him who caused this to happen. Let's see, suffering can be caused by mankind. Wars, isn't it mankind who started this in the first place? Hunger, I believe there's enough food for every single soul in this world, but why, selfish humans! Abortion? Throwing babies & foetuses? Seriously, what's wrong with the world? Arent we all the cause of why these things happen? Think, before you do anything.

As these few things hit me today, it really opened my eyes towered things. Am I living the way God wants me to live? Am I living according to the will of the world instead of Gods? Why am I being materialistic when I know all these will be taken away from me? Why am I still standing here stagnant? Why am I not helping the needy? Why am I not appreciating things I have? WHY. WHY. WHY.

I'm still in the journey of solving these WHYs I'm facing. I pray God'll open my eyes towards things. Amen.

Goodnight.

I have to dream big,

2011-09-11T12:18:00.002+08:00

#nowplaying Jaeson Ma - Glory.

it was said, to achieve something, you have to dream big.
In everything im yet to do, I pray to God for direction. Whatever I do, isnt for my own benefit, but for the glory of the Lord. I dont want to do wordly things.

4 more months till the end of 2011'.
In the beginning of this year, I wrote down things I wish to see myself achieve. 4 more months to achieve it!

These are a list of things I aim to be completed by end of december! :D

! Finish reading the bible. i think i have like 20 over books to finish.
! Go for missionary work. Really want to travel to other poor countries to help out, explore as well as sharing the good word.
! Help out in the church ministry. Really want to see more and more youths joining as well as the student group multiplying.
! Continue my journal. Finished journal on the book of matthew, still got 2 more books i guess?
! Clean my room. Throw all unnessecary stuffs and books.
! Get more piano scores & learn how to play.
! Have christmas open house YAY.
! Outing with ZZ, Yuen Teng.
! Outing with D*starz, KARAOKE! :D self reminder: bring earplugs.
! Improving my photography skills, time to learn some new skills, snap pictures which bring memories.
! LOTS AND LOTS OF OUTING.
! improving praying skills. should do a journal.
! wanna go singapore youth camp.
! Grow taller. saddest part of my life, being short.
! Find a good course and a good college to enroll.

Nothing in this world comes free,

2011-08-30T15:41:00.005+08:00

HELLO! im' back here again, im so bored :O
so yeah, im gonna write something hehehhe. D*starz&D*starz junior had auditions last thurday, so i was asked to gave a short speech, HAH! but it was too sudden and everyone was staring at me with those O.O eyes, so im gonna write it here! :D

ONCE UPON A TIME .. A NERD ..
lol kidding k k.

Cheer had really changed my life. well if you see my in school im just an ordinary student. i know i look like nerd k -_- but yeah. the only thing i can say is, high school is the time you should really enjoy, every single second, minute and hour.

HELLO, MEET MR. SKINLESS. if you havent seen him yet, you should pay him a visit at the bio lab! :D he's friendly! but he lost one of his arm recently :( HAHAH!

cheer is not just a sport. its a sport which really requires teamwork & hardwork. months of practices, tears, sweat, pain, injuries. but everntually you'll learn that eventhough you're injured, you'll have to stick everything up, bare with the pain and finish the routine in order not to dissapoint anyone ( your coaches, captains and yr teammates! ). being a cheerleader is not of fame & popularity, but it shows to other how much you love it. like what i said that day, treat everyone in the team like your own, all of you are sisters, never go against each other, NEVER! if nothing works right, find a way to solve it.

months of practices, through tears, joy, pain, injuries, we're able to show others what we've been training so hard for.

bare in mind, many will think cheerleaders are bimbos, and stupid -.- but never let those words drag you and your spirit down. your parents might even treaten you with cheer. so, do keep your grades up too k! :D cheerleaders are not dumb k! you're all smart! :D prove to the others k! :D i believe many of you are really smart people, so just do your best k. (:

of cause months of practices, we do learn to have fun too! :D

WELL, WITH OUR COACHES, so garang lol :p kidding* you'll get lots of lots of scoldings! expect it k! but i can assure you that every single scolding you are about to get will be for your very own good, as well for the team! :-D

you'll get a lot of " long speeches " from the teachers and coaches. HAHAHHA!

remember girls, all of you train for one aim - for champion in nationals! show you parents what you've been training for thse months. they've paid a lot indeed fr coaching, gym and for the uniform. remember all of you are trained to be champion material. though there are times during practices where you have the urge to give up, remember never give up! no matter what stick it up! :D you can never give up, or your whole team will end up being dissapointed, and never cheat on strengthwork k! want nice abs like jennys, go do your strengthwork! :B

after your hardwork paid off, go party! :D

okay, ive been crapping a lot. conclusion now.

ive had the time of my life this two years in cheer. cheering could be hard at times where you have to bare with injuries and pains. you'll experience tears of joy as well as pain. nothing will be the same ever again. train for champions girls! :-) whoever gets in the team next year, i'll wish you all the best of luck k! :D each and everyone of you got choosen in the team for a reason. never dissapoint your teammates & yr parents, as well listen to your coaches, teachers and captains k! ALL THE BEST, AND I'LL BE BACK WATCHING YOU PEOPLE PRACTICE AHAHHAHA, see till you'll all be muak at my face :p

ALL THE BEST D*STARZ & D*STARZ JR. 2011/2012 (:

* i know lah my whole post is boring, bye very sleept gonna tidur hhehaefbhlsufhbieyfud;o*

everything ended perfectly,

2011-07-29T17:41:00.004+08:00

wow, i cant believe it, it's all over, OVER, O-V-E-R.
months of practices ended just like that. wow. many things happened during this 7 months of practice, times flies so fast, it felt like weeks.
after joining the team this year, i never regretted anything. the team faced problems, and i think my teammates were problematic ( lol, whoops ___ :p ) but everything changed. now, me and my teammates are closer than anything else. we talked a lot and we even know each others private stuffs :p

D*STARZ improved so much. so much.

oh btw, D*STARZ are nationals top 8! it was impossible to even get top 10 with our standard this year. but each of us took up the challenge to do our best, and give our every drop of sweat and tears for the team. we worked so hard, did so much strengthwork. oh look, where we are now :") it's my last year, i didnt want to see us de-proved from what we were last year. i tried my best to work behind the team, text my flyer everynight, ask her to stretch .___. it's my last year, and i want to do all i could for the team (:

frankly speaking, i was quite dissapointed with my team at first, i really dont understand why. but i regretted thinking that way now. im sorry d*starz, i love you people really much, you guys are like my second family. last years team were'nt close, i mean as close as this years. we're really like a big family, more like sisters, really (:

from National Youth Day, we got 6th --> Charm Cheerleading Championship (C3) , we got 4th --> Cheer Nationals 2011' , we got 8th! :D

coach always tell the team, do it for wenli, it's her last year. well, i can say this, my team didnt do it for me, well maybe they did, but they too, did it for the teachers, our coaches, our parents who paid money every month for our coaching and gym fees, as well for all the scolding we got from them, we did it to prove to those who kutuk us and didnt believe in us, to those who didnt like cheerleading. we did it, and we proved to these people during nationals, we're not just a bunch of LA-LA ( thats what ppl define cheerleaders -.- ) CHEERLEADERS, but we are a team with 16 members, strong, and we gave everything could for the best of the team. those who kutuk'ed us, and didnt believe in us, HAH, IN YOUR FACE! :p

we went up to the blue mat, gave our best, cause what coach told us was : " you spend months to practice for your 2 min and 30 secs routine, its just 150 sec, for the tons of hours you've practice, you do not wanna waste a single second of your routine, give your best! then you can rest after that. " so true, our parents paid so much, and we practiced so much. 6 hours of school, then 3 hours of practice, then tuition, omg, you know how tiring is this?! we went up to the blue mat, gave our best in our single second! (: i left the mat without any regrets, too happy, tears of joy (": WHO SAY WEN LI NEVER CRY?! I JUST DONT WANNA CRY INFRONT OF YOU PPLE, SO MEMALUKAN -_____- , hahahhahaha but i do cry when im happy, just you guys dont see it hhahahahhaha :p

this year's a really memorable one for me, i enjoyed so much. sigh, it's my turn to retire. i will miss all 18 of you monkeys, all the pep talks, motivational talks, lunch breaks together, scolding from coaches, practices together (":
im sorry if i ever offended anyone in the team k, i love you people so much, you guys are like my sister ( even better coughs coughs* ) . i really hope when i come back next year, dont kick me out k :p i really hope our friendship will last till the end of our lives. i'll never ever forget all our memories together!

thank you for all the memories you guys gave me, it's my last year, and im proud to say this " D*STARZ #! , and im really proud of each and everyone of you! " bye d*starz 2011'. next year will never be the same as this years, but i pray that whoever is leading the team, God you'll grant them wisdom to lead these * monkeys * , grant them a sacrifitial heart, a soft heart to not anger easily. BYE ("""":

PICTURES! (: more on facebook!

mickeys and d*starz! (:

D*STARZ BEST MAKEUP. TWO YEARS IN A ROW BABY! :D HAH. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ELICIA, MY FRIEND, FOR HELPING US THESE TWO YEARS! LOVE YOU SO MUCH LETS GO PARTY ONE DAY :P oh to those who were wondering, why were these bunch of monkeys screaming and jumping when they were annouced best make up like they won champion for nationals. lol. we were grateful, even we knew best make up is no biggie, but we were proud of ourselves too (": its just an act of joy.

LISSA. the best captain weih ( well next to firzana, lol i always say this -.- ) . she's younger than me, but she's really strong ( as in physically and mentally ) . it's not easy to lead a bunch of naughty monkeys k, and i salute you lissa! :) love you and karyna too!

me, qile and wailoong. lol. wanted to take pic with qi le, then this waillong ah -.- mengacau lol, kidding kidding.

FIRE UP AND SCREAM, SRIAMAN, GO TEAM! YAY! D*STARZ AND B*STARZ! <3 PUTERI PUTERI SRI AMAN!

D*STARZ HAVING DESSERTS AT TUTTI FRUTTI! (:

MY CUTEST FLYER PUTRI NADEA (: though i get to fly you only for 7 months, and you're like the youngest in the team and im the oldest -_- we bond so well. hehehehhee, you know how much i love you right? ^^ you improved tremendously. i really love you. you gave all your best for the team. texting me and saying this : " wenli, i promise you i'll get a spike for you k? " (""""": so touched! you're the sweetest thing i've ever met. now you got your B&A for both legs, join next year k ! (-: LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU ( ew sounds so wrong! )

D*STARZ WHEN OUR PARTY?!!!!!!!!!! :O
LETS GO PARTAYH ALL NIGHT LONG LOL!

It's all coming to an end ,

2011-07-22T19:02:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN! (:

In less than 48 hours, we'll be competing for what we trained so hard for. Everything will come to an end. I'll really miss each and every single one of my teammates! (":
all the thick and thins we faced in this one year. how many times we failed during practices. how many times we wanted to give everything up. In a team, nothing works without teamwork. Especially in a team of 20 people, how do you expect things to go right and smoothly as you planned if we don't cooperate?

D*starz went from nothing to something this year. its true 3/4 of our team consists of new members, we trained so hard, did so much strengthwork, cried so many times because it really did hurt. We trained many people who knew nothing about stunting, or still, are new at it. How many times we got hit at places which hurt badly, how many times we got bruised by someones mistake, we teared, and cried at so many things. We got pushed by our coaches, but nothing seem to be really getting better. Our team didnt much cooperate together, i mean we have gangs :p the cool people one gang, the not so cool one gang, the juniors one gang -.- well, im the only form 5, so yes, im the loneliest of them all, lol, just kidding :p now we're closer than anyone else outside the team. we're just more than teammates, we're sisters! we talk to each other about " stuffs " *coughs coughs* besides cheer lol. i mean who would wanna talk about your private life to strangers right? well that proved were more than strangers.

we trained for tons of hours, but everything will end after we step up on the mat and perform together as a full team for that 150 secs (:

never waste any single second on the mat, go full out. the results depends on how you perform for that 2 mins 3o seconds on the mat. all your tons of hours of practices, dont dissapoint your team or even regret after performing. we wanna leave the mat being proud of your team as well as yourself that you pulled up a good show.

D*STARZ,
i really wanna say that i appreciate everyone of you! (: i never regretted joining the team again this year. you guys taught me so much and i'll bring it with me forever. every single bitter sweet moments will be kept in my heart forever. I love you people very much, and I wish you guys the best of luck in the future k (;
it's my last year, and i wont get to step up on the mat again to compete with you guys anymore, but i really pray that this sunday, it'll be our year, we'll do our best, and be proud of ourselves, not regretting every single second on the mat!

Lastly, THANKS YOU TEACHERS, COACHES AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO SUPPORTED US! :D

OH AND ALL THE BEST TO ALL THE TEAMS COMPETING! I BELIEVE THAT EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WILL DO YOUR BEST ON THE MAT!

winning isnt everything, it's about the moments and journey spent with your teammates - what i learned from my team this year (:

TA TA! (:

D*STARZ 2011' !

how great thou art,

2011-07-10T12:55:00.002+08:00

a song for you guys to listen to, a very meaningful song (:

this week have been a very good week to me. starting of with school, i've been missing many classes, but thank God, i managed everything well, i understand the syllabus ( i feel like eating popcorn, lol suddenly -.- ) yeah, continue, then with cheer, D*STARZ have been improving tremendously, im shocked! i was really scared how everything will go at the beginning of the year, and how everything has changed. thanks god, putri's not that blurr anymore, well she still is :p but at least she got the whole routine in her mind like her daily routine so claps*! tuition went well, physics and addmaths, not bad (:

i went for the launching of 24/7 prayer watch. for those who dont know what this is. we'll be praying for 24 hours a day, 7 days continuously. like what God say, prayer is powerful, we have to pray to see breakthrough. prayed for 3 hours for that 2 days! really felt refreshed, all we did was praying in tongues for our churches, leaders, members. and while i was praying i saw sthing -

a nail pierced hand. what is the first thing that comes into yr mind when i say nail pierced hand? i have this picture of a hand with a nail pierced right into the centre of the palm, of cause there was blood. but i believe what God's trying to show me is Hid goodness. what He did. He sent his only and only begotten son Jesus to die for us, and to sacrifice himself for us humans, to be cleanse by the precious blood of the lamb, and be free from sins. he much pain he suffered, being tortured, torns on his heads, beaten up, and look at the size of the nail which has been pierced into the palms of His hands. i wanted to google the picture, but i think i will throw up looking at the size of the nail piercing through the palms, so forget it :p

but i really pray that each and everyone of you will repent. dont be a dry christian, instead pray and let God fill you from within (:

amen.

keep breathing ,

2011-07-03T12:27:00.003+08:00

i've read my captains blog posts she wrote for us, and indeed im so touched.

HI LISSA,
i respect you so much as my captain ( well, next to aisha firzana :p ) , but i respect you for every single thing you've done and sacrificed for the team. well of cause to karyna too! both of you are younger than me, but you guys handle 16 monkeys so well. every single effort, tears, sweat, scoldings and sleepless nights will soon pay off k (: we'll promise to work as a team and make you both proud <3 i know how stress you feel. you'll be sitting for your major this year, like me :p but i believe you'll do your best like how you cheer'ed hard. i wish you all the best!

cheer 11 has been postponed due to the bersih rally. i think its good for us to bersihkan our routine too :p eventhough it turned out to be quite a shocking news, but i believe teams are taking this opportunity to train harder to get higher skills and make cheer 11 a memorable one. i see spikes and bow and arrows, double downs from lib ext :O we'll make cheer 11 history though its a one day event. we'll get to see tougher skills, and we've improved so much, judges are proud to see us improving though there's a lot of boundaries set for us to achieve tougher skills ( dangerous also X_X )

so C3 is coming first which is 2 weeks from now, so we've better work hard! :D

one thing im so happy about is, i see D*STARZ is really improving. last years team was really strong. and when 3/4 of the team left this year, we started training newbies. 3 of our flyers were new. we've faced so many circumstances this year. we fall so much that sometimes we felt like giving up we didnt want to get back up. we've never felt this weak before. training flyers who doesnt lock, who gives up halfway, whos parents ban them in the middle for small reasons, who gets injured, who doesnt do strengthworks, who doesnt come for practices consistently. i know my captains are stressed, they get scolded from my coaches and teachers too. i cannot imagine myself being in their shoes, their situation, i might just break down and cry.

but everything changed. we've improved so much, every stunts went up, flyers lock and stick their stunts. though we have much to improved and clean, but i believe we've improved so much and we're ready to hit everything on the mat and show off our routine. we'll do our best cause we only have one shot, one chance this year. no time for failures! all of us know how important this is to us. 5 months before was tough for us, but now we're ready than ever! :D

to my dearest flyer Putri,
you've just joined us this year, you're the youngest in the team. you came in scared and lost i can see that. but now, you've improved so much! :D ( pls give me yr spike-h OKAY, and SCOPIANZZZZZZ lol ) YOU IMPROVED SO MUCH I JUST WANNA HUG AND KISS YOU FOR THAT! :p i believe you'll do great during competition cause you're competitive, you do so well infront of our competitors -.- so show off lah you HAHAHAHAH xD

and Demi too, you're so cute, you never show any expression, you're so emotionless :p and so cute! BOTH OF YOU LOOKS SO CUTE WHEN YOU GUYS SMILE K, i mean all the 4 flyers :) so pretty can cry huhuhuhu :"''''') love you guys to bits! <3

okay enough for the long posts, saya nak cari saya punya voucher pizza kerana saya nak pergi makan pizza nanti BYES! ^^v

greener than ever ,

2011-06-26T10:49:00.001+08:00

im blogging again. kinda bored here since i dont really plan to start revising for trials yet :p
trials are like in september, looooooonnnnnnnnnggggggg way to go, so i might as well CHILL for a while!
this coming 3 weeks will be super busy for me. i've exams, tests, classes, competitions and many more to come. i really expect high from myself. i cannot fail, and i never fail. i'll give all my best to do sthing ( sthing meaningful and worth it -.- ) i still have to balance up everything (:

service was good yesterday! i miss service! i've been busy with camps and competitions i missed so many services, and i dislike it :(
i love going to church, its like my home since young. and yesterday's topic was good!
DOES MONEY REALLY MATTER IN LIFE?
i really admire bill gates. he's listed as the richest man on earth with whoops, i forgotten how many billions, but yeah, and he gave 1/3 of his property to the poor. he visited poor countries such as india, africa and many more. what he has, he used to bless others. and because of that, he lost his title as ' worlds riches man '. seriously, with the amount of money you have, you think you can finish it all up? when you die, you cannot bring anything with you ..
it's really foolish. why dont you give it to the poor? do sthing good with it? instead of leaving it all to yourself. it's called selfish.
money causes many things. it causes people to fight, to cry, to die, to sin and many more.
- a kid in china sold his kidney for an ipad2 ?!
- a girl trade virginity for iphone4 ?!

WHAT NON SENSE. the truth is people in this world are getting more and more materialistic. and in fact, i dont see why having these goods can make your life better? a nurse who worked in a hospital for a long time wrote this on his journal " the most common thing people regretted on their dying bed is this - i've spend my life working too hard for money, and i regretted not spending time with my loved one "

money is not everything. it cannot buy you happiness, live your life fully with your loved ones, enjoy every single second of your life, peace! ^^V

its not our weekend, but its gonna be our year ,

2011-06-04T19:50:00.002+08:00

end of day 2 cheer camp.
oh well, we surely did better than yday, but not good enough.
its true we dont have the same spirit as last year, but last year was pass, and this year is present and its time to show others we still have the same spirit - D*STARZ spirit.
its 35 days to nationals!
i didnt plan to join cheer this year, well, its SPM year -.-
duhh spm kan nak study hardore kan, nak score A++++++ for SPM right?
but really i didnt want to stop cheer, and stop sports and sit at home and study like a nerd, and ger FAT huhuhuhu.
indeed 3/4 of the team are new, but still i believe in every single one of my teammates that we'll work this out and give our best during nationals and C3 :)
i gave my best, and because of cheer, i have to manage my time properly, i have to study in a tired condition, but i still give my best!
i wanna score academically as well as cocuricullarly. i want to balance.
its my last year in high school, after this year, i wont do such thing anymore. i will go to college or maybe university ( OH HOW BORING ) , and i'll just continue with life.

well, this years team, not to say im dissapointed but i believe each and everyone can do so much better! :D we wont have the same team, and same spirit next year. i dont know what will happen to dstarz next year, but what we have this year, i really want to give my best, and pull up a good show. i really want to look back 10 years later, looking at our routine and feel proud that we've done our very best. i dont want to dissapoint my coaches, teacher advisors, captains, teammates, myself and also my parents. I PROMISE MY PARENTS I WILL DO MY BEST THIS YEAR, they put so much hope on me, and my team, i really want to show them what they paid for was worth it ( oh shit im crying now - wipe tears ) im the only one in my family who uses this much money. i feel bad. my mother always tell me :" its okay, money is meant to spent, i can earn more, money will comeback, but memories will be kept forever :) "
i really want to make this year worth it! (-:
after 35 days, we wont be dstarz 2011 anymore, we'll all go separate ways, no more cheer practices together, everyone will miss everything, we wont sit together and chit chat, we wont stunt together. i bet all of us will study real hard after cheer season.

35 more days. come on d*starz lets show them we can do this! :D
i believe in you guys, no matter what happens, remember we're always a team, do not hate each other for what have passed, look forward, plan how to get better :D
this is all i can say, my last year, my last shot, i dont wanna go with dissapointment.

OH LORD, protect each and every of my teammates,
let them be strong and keep them away from harm.
you know my heart, and i'll do my best.
grant us strength to oevercome any challenges.
amen.

a little note for the precious ones ,

2011-05-18T17:55:00.002+08:00

i dont not know whether any of my teammates will read this, but i would like to write a little something for all of you (:

never would i thought i will be a cheerleader, i wasnt born with personality of a cheerleader. i never speaked out loud, i never voice up my mind in public, i wasnt very talkative, i guess im just an average girl who lived a normal life. i never fancy cheerleaders when i was in a lower form, i somehow have a mindset of ' all cheerleaders are problematic, bimbo, disrespectful, arrogant, ' and any negative words i could think of, but i was wrong, all wrong.

in fact. cheerleaders are the most friendly people on earth, ( uh, well mostly, i guess :p ) the look cool outside, but they're actually quite soft in the inside once you get to know them. you can just say hi, and they'll smile at you and reply HI ( well i did mention, most of them, not all hahahah -.- )

well, here i am, a cheerleader -__-

in this world, you have haters as well as people who love you and respect you for who you are. if noones knows how to aprreciate you, leave them, you have others to love you. do not dwell in the past, move on.

currently, i mean this year, my team is facing quite a lot of problems, but i can only say this " no matter how big the problem is, teamwork solves everything " who cares if someone quited, who cares if we have 3/4 of the team new, who cares if someone in the team is weak, who cares if there's poor leadership, who cares if our stunts keep failing and falling. well who cares? i do not. and why?

teamwork. i believe in a team of 16 people, teamwork matters. it doesnt matter how big our team is and how we split into gangs, in practice teamwork shows everything. who cares if someone quited? TRAIN HARDER, TRAIN QUICK, FIND A REPLACEMENT AND TRAIN HARDER. who cares if we have 3/4 of the team new? I SEE PEOPLE WORKING SO HARD DOING STRENGTHWORK TRYING TO HELP THE TEAM :" im doing all these strengthwork to get stronger, im helping myself to get stronger so i can base you" ( this is what i observe and hear ) , who cares if someone in the team is weak? HELP EACH OTHER UP, MOTIVATE EACH OTHER, THATS WHAT A TEAM DOES! who cares if there's poor leadership? EVERYONE IN THE TEAM WORKS TOGETHER AND HELP EACH OTHER UP! DO NOT LEAVE EVERYTHING TO THE CAPTAINS, THEY TRIED HARD, WE SHOULD COORPERATE! who cares if our stunts keep failing and falling? HELP EACH OTHER UP AGAIN, MOTIVATE EACH OTHER, STICK UP THE SUNTS NO MATTER WHAT, DO NOT GIVE UP!

if all of us change our mindset, i believe we can do this as a team! in less than 2 months, i believe we can still make it! as long as we train harder ( i mean very hard, give you 110 percent full out ) , come for practices with a postive mindset, setting goals that you want to achieve during todays practice ( and i mean it, do not go dragggggggggggggggg ~ ) as long as we train harder, and train as a team, a believe we'll be able to regain our strength. work as a team. who says a team will never face challenges? no one. if we fail, get back up, and recover fast!

im saying this as a senior, and i hope each of us will do our best! its not about winning, but about the precious moments we go through as a team (:

D*STARZ #1 !
I LOVE YOU GUYS K, WITH THE VERY BOTTOM OF MY HEART <3

butterflies in the air ,

2011-05-17T09:40:00.002+08:00

good morning (:
its a holiday today, well actually im feeling pretty much refreshed.
i have 3 more days of exams, and i'll be free. NYD will be coming soon, and we'll be praticing hardcore. many things had changed. and im starting to get afraid of things. time is really running out and people arent cooperating. i shall just leave this aside, i'll just do my best and God, you'll do the rest.
im going home soon, its almost done :D finally! so yeah those who wants to crash my house, i dont mind k :p
i will be travelling soon! and i really cant wait to get out from this city! i want to feel freedom, hah. i really cant wait, i need a break from this craziness (:

oh Lord, i really need your help.
i Pray you'll answer my prayer.
listen to my needs.
im in need of help.
all glory to your name.
amen (:

Pinocchio,

2011-04-23T08:58:00.002+08:00

remember me, im in danger, pinocchio - F(x) Pinocchio (:

hello.
im sitting here uploading pictures, so i must well blog while waiting. the only thing i'll do when im on the computer is log on to facebook. eversince i have my ipod touch, i use it most of the time. my parents wont nag at me for hanging on to the computer for hours, life became much simpler (:

yesterday my base sent me the link for cheer 11, and i went on and check. and i realized that THE CHEER CLINIC WILL BE ON THE 16 TH AND 17 TH OF JUNE! WHICH MEANS I WONT BE ABLE TO ATTEND FOR I'LL BE GOING TO KOREAAAA! :o
i was quite down trying to change my flight and what not. but at the end, i think to myself, why frust? God said leave everything to him, he'll guide and lead me through it. i felt peace after (:
i dont have to frust about it, its his will if he wants me to go or not. i'll just submit everything to him, i'll never know, there might be changes. im just waiting for a miracle to happen (:
God wants to test me, and i'll trust in him.

yesterday was good friday, a great day to be remembered. the day God was being tortured and hung on the cross for you and me. he gave and sacrifice his life for you and me.
i read this tweet by Jaeson Ma, btw, he's one person i really admire most. he changed his life, and also using his experience to change other peoples life too, how cool is that 8D

his tweet:
I ask God how much he loves me, and he stretch his arms wide and said this much, then he spread his arms on the cross for you and me.

living in this world full of suffering, but we know, once we're dead, we're going to a much better place, no one will suffer (:

its easter tomorrow, 3 days later Jesus rose from the death. have you ever seen someone who dies and ressurect after 3 days?! maybe you had, but 3 days?! i've heard few hours but now 3 days! God is almighty which in him, everything is possible as long as you believe. Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains :D

God has done so much, what more can i ask? I LOVE YOU GOD REALLY I DO. YOU GAVE ME LIFE AND TAUGHT ME HOW TO LIVE. YOU'RE A GOOD EXAMPLE OF HOW WE SHOULD LOVE. YOU SACRIFICED YOUR ONLY SON FOR THE SAKE OF SINNERS OF THIS WOLRD. WHAT MORE CAN I ASK? YOUR LOVE FOR ME IS UNENDING. I WILL TRUST IN YOU TILL THE END (:

i'll put all my trust and hope in you, i'll follow what you say, hoping for miracles to happen.

gtg, waiting for my sausage bun! :D
busy day today, cant wait for easter service! painting bunny eggs and dancing! (:
<3

the bluebird of happiness ,

2011-04-09T15:50:00.003+08:00

meet darren, me and zabby 8D

oh my title for this post, its a song (:

HAHAHA HELLO! :D
i know i've been MIA for quite sometimes, i just decided to check on my blog when wow, i see loads of comments on my c-box. HI PEOPLEEE <3

went to school today, school replacement, managed to skip the last two periods for cheer practice, now my back aching! tried walkover, finally i can get up from a bridge, but still falling on my knees huhu :"(
anyway, this is a short post, really really short one, have a great day!

okay, gotta go get ready for church, bye!

I'll catch a grenade for you,

2011-02-21T15:46:00.002+08:00

OH HELLO (;
look at the picture, that guy above is just too adorable i could die! xD
joking lah. he's cute especially when he smiles! okay okay, change topic -_-

i've been listening to bruno mars lately, his voice ohohohooho.
LISTEN TO LOVE - JAESON MA FT. BRUNO MARS!

getting into topic, i would love to share sthing regarding sthing i've learnt during last sats' valentines student service. i think its really important to learn about ' REAL LOVE ' , so im gonna share a bit (:

btw, we had chocolates hunting before service started. wow. the amount of chocolates :p
they even hid chocolates in the toilets! on top on the light bulbs -_- i took a mop to bring it down lol.

Love Matters ( 1 John 3:16-18)

do you really know what true love is?

'' NOW HOLLYWOOD WANTS TO MAKE YOU THINK THEY KNOW WHAT LOVE IS, BUT IMMA TELL YOU WHAT TRUE LOVE IS, ITS NOT WHAT YOU SEE IN THE MOVIES, ITS NOT THE ECSTACY, ITS NOT WHAT YOU SEE IN THE SCENE - JAESON MA. "

true love is sacrifice, love is thinking about others before thinking about yourself. love is selfless, not selfish, love is God and God is love. Love is when you lay down your life for your mother, father, brother and sisters, but are you willing to lay down you life even for your enemies? love is patient, love is kind, its does not envy, its does not boast, it isnt proud, love is not rude, its not self seeking, its not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrong. it always trust always hopes, it never fails, love is the only think which last when you die.

young people are influenced by movies and thought they know what love is. but do you know the real definition of love?

do you think its right when you loved, and broke and loved and broke and loved and broke .. and at the end when you found someone who's right for you, how much time you wasted? why do you want to get together when you dont even know whether both of you will end up living together till death do you apart? end up when you broke, how much tears you'll waste? how deep the scar will leave you. and at the end you'll regret, why not using your youth to do sthing that is useful. dont we have studies we need to care for?

do you love eating left over food?
why dont you save the best for yourself?
let me tell you,

CHARACTERISTICS OF A GREAT MAN.
- Love God
- Love People
- Sense of purpose
- Solid character ( responsible, hardworking, integrity, stable, real, respect, trustworthy)

what you heard which are pleasing to your ears, end up to be lies, and it'll not last forever.

CHARACTERISTICS OF A GREAT WOMAN.
- Loving
- Submissive
- Hospitable
- Moderate/ Thankful.

it's not fun making fun of people. people do have feelings. MEN WHO FEAR GOD ARE SOMEONE WORTH LOOKING FOR (:

do now go for looks, height, weight, nationality, race, but look whats in the heart. what you see in the outside may be the opposite in the inside, you'll never know, till one day..

annnnd, what's life?

2011-02-06T20:20:00.002+08:00

im just chilling a bit, gonna do my homeworks soon (:

IM NOT HAPPY, NOT HAPPY AT ALL. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WORLD?!
my topic today.

google's not being nice, not letting me to load some nice pictures up, so plain today kay (:

first things first, I'VE GOTTEN IN D*STARZ 2011' ! auditioned, worked hard, train hard, and yes, hanstands walk O.O in my amusement, i did 28 times of that, lol.
it has been a though time. struggling with form 5s life, and homeworks. can you imagine my homeworks are pilling up as tall as KLCC! -_- just jk lh, where got so kua, siao ah.

and i really do miss dstarz 2010 team. they're really the best! its not tht this years is bad, we havent train as a team yet, so idk whts gonna hpen.
i've never thought i would end up joining dstarz this year, well, its spm and all, its time to chill, relax and study, HOHOHO, maybe i really did got addicted to cheer, but yeah, its considered as a sport, i need to exercise to stay healthy.

AIYAA, CNY AH, I ATE TOO MUCH AH, GAINED 2 KGS AH. DIET TMRW! :D

back to where i stopped,
as a team, of cause we need leaders to lead the team. no matter how young they are, as long as they're capable, it does not matter. but what i seen and from what i observed, im just speechless. it really is dissapoiting. how people could just think of their own kebaikan and leave everything behind, everyone else behind. i just dont know what to say :'( they choose the best for themselves instead of see whats lacking and adding another strong to the weak and balance everything up, but NOOOO, all the good ones you simpan, the bad ones you kicked it off! im not angry, see (: (: (: im smiling :D
i can see people are selfish. when i opened twitter or facebook, all i could see is complains. backstabbing. anger. ahahhaha, apparently thts a good place to write your heart out lol :p
i do so too, but not to the exact level which fuiyoh O,O

people nowadays getting worst and worst. attitude really. what i can do is to pray for them, thts all (:
they have to changed themselves. i can help them to open their eyes and hearts, but not wash their brains.

OH LORD, I NEED YOUR GUIDANCE. MAY I BE SOMEONE WHO CONFRONTS THE TRUTH AND SPEAK OF WISDOM AND NOT ANGER (:
AMEN.

with every step you climb another mountain ,

2011-02-04T12:23:00.003+08:00

I FOUND OUT THAT MY BLOG IS SO UN-COLOURFUL , SO ..
nyehehehe. TA-DA, i found this on tumblr !

it has been a really long time since i logged in to tumblr, internet is really slow! -_-
i want unifi, its so fast O.O
i havent updated much, watched much of anything :(
i think it's Gods will to not let me watch anything, since its SPM year lol.
but, but its just the beginning of the year! SPM only maaa (:

it's the second day of chinese new year.
wanna know what i've been doing this whole week ? :D
EAT.SLEEP.ONLINE.EAT.SLEEP.TV.EAT.SLEEP.HOMEWORKS.EAT.SLEEP.STUDY.
#nowplaying 2am's i did wrong (:

continue, yeah, thts all i did. sad case. i think i gained weight, but nevermind lah. going on a strict diet after cny, which is next week.
gonna upload pics on fb soon, cny pics. didnt snap much cause my camera really potong steam! when people playing fireworks, i wanna snap pictures, camera no batt -____-
really ah.

not much to blog today, might be going to ikea tonight ((:
hehe, okay lh, i crap a lot liao, BYEEEESSSS (:

looking back at old times ,

2011-01-31T19:41:00.002+08:00

CHEMISTRY T________Tv

okay lah , the pictures is just for entertainment ,
HEY JUDY , I KNOW YOU STALK ME KAY , LOLOLOL , just joking (:
im having mood to blog now , hehe .

IM ALMOST 17 ALREADY , TIME FLIES , looking back at my childhood pictures , it really brings back memories , some pictures quite ugly actually , but its part of the growing process , hahaha.
just went out with jamie, judy, my sis and huixin . went karaoke :p

i've been thinking much. i've been confused and still am. its my choice, i picked up science instead of arts. and mind you, its not tht those being in arts are so called ' dumb ' and those in science are ' geniuses ' . they choose arts because they might wanna take sthing related to arts in the future , why waste time and take science and doing sthing they dont like right ?
im still stuck in between my parents will and my choice.
i personally am not the kind of person who likes to study numbers or science. i took up science for knowledge (:
i really hope to learn more , actually i quite like biology .
i dont know whether to take up food nutritionist, dentist, event and managements or mass comm !
i like arts, i like doing stuffs, i like drawing, i like decorating, i like planning events, i like so many things related to arts , but what can i do ?
can i earn much ? can i live by doing these things ?
of cause i can (:
i want to do something i like, i dont mind earning little, its still better than earning a lot , until money can flood yr hse, bt you dont hve the interest in tht smething you took up.
im still struggling . time's ticking !
its not sthing i can EE NEE MEE NEE MYY NEE MOO at D:
everytime i see people working in malls, i see them smiling. everyone has their own interest, and we need people in every field. janganlah semua jadi doctor, others are fun too (:

its one lonnnnnnggggg paragraph , okay lh , no more grandma stories.

GOING TO PASAR MALAM TO GET SOME CNY COOKIES ! :DD

HAPPYYYYYY CHINESEEE NEWWW YEARRRR EVERYONNNNEEE ! enjoy your one week holiday, sleep as much as you can ! (:

till then , love wenli .

shooting stars ,

2011-01-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

second week of schl has passed !
it has been a long week , and an exciting one :D
dstarz got to perform fr KL Dragons and NTV7 , and cheer practices started , loads of juniors came , sho cute :D ( im realizing ive been using too much emotions -.- )
and registration fr koko was on friday .
starting tmrw , its gonna be a very very very very x100000 year , senior year , last year in high school , loads of chnges will happen , but i will endure it , BYE ! muahahhaha <3

things arent at the right place .

2010-12-31T16:04:00.002+08:00

its new years eve ! arent you excited ?! :D
its time to end a chapter and start a new one (:
i slept at 2 yday , bcse of some mosquitoes wing wing wing around my ears , what i did was to put on my earphones and listen to some songs .
let me write meaningful events of 2010 , enjoy !

this year was a whole new year fr me , a vry challenging one indeed.
i scored well in my pmr , i wasnt surprised at all whn i got straight as ( im not boasting :p )
but its true , ive done my best , thou i didnt knw which stream to choose bck then , but i ended up choosing pure science .
i wanted to choose arts , i was confused too thn , bt i tried the though road .
i dont know wht i want to be in the future .
i joined cheer , and yes , it was vry fun and stressing .
imagine 4 practice a week , and each takes 3 hours , and we go to gym too .
it was really tiring , but it was fun .
especially whn we go fr competitions , we practice everyday and more than 3 hours .
oh , 6 hours per day and 5 days in a week :p
i bet evryone in my team lost weight drng training and practices .
D*STARZ won 6 national awards ! :DD
sox and cheer 10 .
we went throught tears and jot tgthr as a team , we supported each other , thts the spirit which brought us to our victory , not to mention our capt and co capt , they've been rly responsible , texting everyone and asking thm to come fr practice , wow , BRAVO !
and yes , cheetah style , sthing different , we did stand out drng cheer 10 !

D*STARZ ' s party 2010 .

D*STARZ at cheer 2010 .

cheer season was over , but we did recieved a lot of gigs and performances (:

after school was over , i found a job at a nearby restaurant near my hse .
worked thre fr more than a month (:
gained experience , and i rly thnk my dad and mom fr being so supportive ! <3
got my ipod touch with the money i worked fr , my hard earned money .

ive chge church , but im not used to the new one , i want to go bck to the old one , and im going back , 2011 WILL BE A NEW YEAR , IM LEAVING WHATEVER IS DONE AT 2010 AT 2010 ! im not bringing it to a new year , (:

and lastly , to all my friends who supported me , I LOVE YOU GUYS ! im not gnna name you one by one , eheheheh , its gnna take me forever , but tonight i will wish all of you happy new year either i will send you texts or i'll wish you guys on fb ! :DD

BYE 2010 , HELLO 2011 !

ps : im performing fr ntv7 on the 8/9th of jan (:
cheer season nvr ends does it ? :O

D*STARZ MICKEYS PARTY !

2010-12-29T10:28:00.003+08:00

from left - ME , huiwei, meetra, lissa, zhihoe, xilam, chunkiat, alynna and kenneth (:

we had an outing yesterday, supposely more coming, but umm, yeah, only 5 from dstarz and 6 from mickeymitez. BUT OVERALL IT WAS COOL 8D
we went fr lunch at BurgerKing, then bowling, then arcade, then pooling.
at least the outing went well, thou it was so awkward, and the weirdest outing ever, we succedded! thnks zhihoe fr the help on planning the outing (:

it's KIBUMS birthday today ? :D

i saw someone post this on tumblr. he's sho adorable (:
anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM KI BUM ! im wishing ukiss will hve a great year and more albums will be sold , lol . and continue to be the clown of ukiss :D

dear charmaine ,

i know yr addicted with ' the dancing macchine ' but all these are jst fantasies right ?
you knw, i knw we nvr will get a chance, never. evn if thre is, how high could the chance be?
we can jst stare at them, bt they'll nvr know anything. they're not tht addictive actually after you get hold of sthing else. they're jst pleasing our eyes, but no happy ending evr hppns in reality. we can jst watch them frm screens. they're sthing in the world, bt we're ntg. do you get me? we're not like you knw, the girl sitting nxt to me whos so addicted, erhem. she loves predicting things which will nvr come true. dont worry, these feelings wont last long (:

ive gt a cure fr my drug .

CHEER JAM 2010' !

2010-12-21T18:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE :O
im' back yaww .

im back from cheer jam , it was THE BOM ! met a lot of new friends (:

OH ! THIS IS NATHALIE :D
say HI !

team orange won fr routine , a BIG THANK YOU to our coaches :p
cant wait fr cheer jam nxt year !

cheer jam 2010' group photo .

im not working anymore , 2 more weeks to school -___-

jingle bells jingle bells jingle bells rock , :D
my christmas present , im getting you soon !

2010-12-01T09:39:00.002+08:00

im blogging , again , yay .

i should really take care of my blog well , it's rusting . too bad its owner doesnt hve much time to dust and clean . i will try my best to update often ( i knw ive been saying this evrytime :D , but yeah , im trying )

ive been working fr one month ! two more weeks and im free (:

anyway , i've seen a scene few days ago , and it's really a rare scene and i think its really worth sharing .

DO YOU OFTEN SEE SOMEONE HELPING AN OLD LADY TO CROSS THE ROAD ?
yes , we've been taught since young in schools or even our parents will tell us to be helpful and help the needy , when you see someone who needs help , lend a hand to them and what not . but do we seriously do that ?

what i saw was this guy , around his late twenties or early 30s ( with tie somemore ) holding an old ladys' ( she was holding a tongkat and i think she had some eye problem )hands and helping her to cross the road ( MAIN ROAD ) . it's really a rare scene to watch . yes , the guy could be the ladys son or grandson or whtevr , but it doesnt seem to me like they're related or wht .

wht im trying to say is dont just talk the talk but walk the walk . dont just hand the words on yr mouth , but TAKE ACTION ! (:

last quote - MEN DOES THE POSSIBLE , BUT GOD DOES THE IMPOSSIBLE ! :D

bye , till then , hehe :x

JIGSAW .

2010-11-02T15:30:00.002+08:00

I KNW I HVNT BEEN UPDATING MUCH , SORRY :O
D*STARZ performed for world hunger relief at putrajaya . i miss going to putrajaya , especially PICC (:
on the way thre , mny sweet memories came bck . finals has ended , and i've done my best , i've got my chemistry results , and im somehow dissapointed :/
I'VE GOT A JOB , YAY ! :D

OKAY , UPDATED , BYE !

2010-09-06T08:35:00.002+08:00

Josh Wilson - Before the morning ; thanks jerry fr linking me such a meaningful song (:

Do listen to this song , its lyrics' are really meaningful . it has a story behind this song .

yesterday during sunday service , pastor gave two verses from the bible which i think it's really good , it relates to the situation im facing , and these two verses gave me a lot of encouragement :D

1 Corinthians 1 : 26 - 31 ,

Brothers , think of what you were when you were called . Not many were influential : not many were of noble birth . But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise : God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong . He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things - and the things that are not - to nullify the things that are , so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus , who has become for us wisdom from God - that is , our righteousness , holiness and redemption . Therefore , as it is written : " Let him who boasts boast in the Lord . "

Isaiah 40 : 27 - 31 ,

Why do you say , O Jacob , and complain , O Israel , " My way is hidden from the Lord ; my cause is disregarded by my God " ? Do you not know ? Have you not heard ? The Lord is the everlasting God , the Creator of the ends of the earth . He will not grow tired or weary and increases the power of the weak . Even youths grow tired and weary , and young men stumble and fall ; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength . They will soar on wings like eagles ; they will run and not grow weary , they will walk and not be faint .

Parachute .

2010-07-20T15:42:00.010+08:00

hello people ! im' bck ! (:
blogger is still the best . pictures frm cheer 10 ' .

julia , me and jeremy .

D*STARZ , cheetahs !

karyna , me , adilla and farah .

me and adilla .

D*STARZ - best make up .

D*STARZ - best showmanship !

huiwei , me , hayden and neesha .

it's the end of cheer season , and yes , evry cheerleaders are bck on track at schl . im trying to cope up in class , especially addmaths -_-

cheer 11' ! :D

# 102 Art of eating PIZZA ,

2010-06-14T12:49:00.006+08:00

more pictures in facebook (:

since its holidays , we decided to make pizzas . my brother wants to eat , so all of us terpaksa eat also . so we bought the pizza crust and sausages ( lazy to get peperonis ) , pineapples , tunas , crabmeats and CHEESE ! my brother volunteered to bcme a model , so yeah . since he was still hungry after hvng his 5 piece , so i did something special fr him , and he became so full after it . i did one layer of sausages , one layer of tuna , and another layer of sausages with pineapples and cheese on top of it . the other one , one layer of crab meat , one layer of tuna , another layer of sausages and pineapple and cheese on top of it (:

i hope he gets fat , so skinny . -.-

# 101 PYRAMID , SUNWAY ,

2010-06-09T19:17:00.004+08:00

its SINYIN'S birthday , so we went to SUNWAY PYRAMID tgthr :D

cheeyan fetched me , charmaine and sinyin to asia jaya lrt station and we took lrt to kelana jaya lrt station then we took rapid kl to sunway pyramid . reached there about 10 sthing then we went to asian avenue to get sinyin a present , and we got her a one piece baju and pants . it was nice , on her , it suits her . after tht we went to manhattan fish market , and we ordered one large set , and 2 smaller sets .

mushroom soup , with loads of mushroom chunks .

carbonara with squid rings and garlic bread .

nice :p

grilled fish with dont know wht rice .

at first , chee yan thought 5 of us cant finish the whole 3 sets , but HAHAH , she looked down on me and charmaine , both of us can really really eat a lot , and yeah , A LOT , if we want to . so after a few bites , cheeyan gave up , then ruiying , and sinyin . bcse our objective to come out is to eat . we planned where we wanted to eat and all , so yeah . i was happily eating my meal , it was delicious , everything which can be eaten is delicious to me , i eat everything . LOL . and yeah , after finishing everything , i still felt kinda hungry , i can actually store somemore food , but no , we went to parkson , i got my parents both a perfume , for my moms birthday present and fathers day ! we walked and walked , and we ate again , cause after half and hour , i was asking WHEN CAN WE GO EAT AGAIN , all of them were shocked , what ?! im hungry . but we ate at the end (:

took taxi bck and charmaine fetched me bck . came bck ate again , im gonna get fat again HAHAHAH !

ignore charmaine (:

oh my ! wht hpnd to my arm ?! its not tht huge lah -.-

# 56 GO Taiwan ; Part 2 !

2010-01-31T13:44:00.009+08:00

the end ! i will post the other two more days next time , BYE LOVES !

at night , we went to shihlin night market . look wht ive found . DORAEMONS FAVOURITE ! :D

nice ! no seriously it tase good .

this is a cool tree . its so soft , like rose petals.

i want it !

then we went to chiang kai shek residence . transport thre is super easy . just take a mrt , bus or you can evn walk to anywhere you want to go .

i was walking and i found this ! small pawprint (:

4th Day .

first, we went to this national palace museum , its very big . you have to get your tickets bfre getting in . depends on which one you want to explore . oh, we saw some japanese here . not some , one whole bunch of high school students wearinf their uniform .

end of 3rd day !

thre will be a mini train which takes you around this huge garden (:

vry nice garden indeed .

Cultural Dance !

quite interesting, HAHHAHA .

we at on a cable car ! :D

second destination - Cultural Village .

its more like a theme park . the entrance fees is about 700 twd for an adult , 600/ 650 twd for students and dont know how much for a kid . expensive :/

on the way to the second destination , the taxi man brought us to get some sausages . omgah , look at the size of it !

so they took us to two destinations . the first was a village , nthg much to see . the second destination was an island , and theres an stall selling herbal eggs , nice ones . really , their eggs arent like what we eat here , time is limited , so i cant explain much , but do ask me if you want to know more !

mist .

so we went to the boat , we have to pay 350 twd for the boat trip , it will take about 1 - 2 hours :D

sugarcanes .

3rd Day .

we went for a one day trip outside of taipei , i think we went to taichung , or was it tainan ? so confused :S

it took us 3 hours from taipei to our first destination . OUR FIRST DESTINATION - SUN MOON LAKE . it was cold , and on the way , we chewed sugarcanes , their sugarcanes are unlike malaysias , theirs are rather soft and juicy ! :D

HAH . finally i continue posting my trip . im gonna do it upside way round , which means you;ve got to read from the bottom to the top :D

# 35 GO Taiwan ; Part 1 .

2009-12-20T12:45:00.014+08:00

IM A SURVIVAL !
i survived 9 degree celcius and an EARTHQUAKE ! i will get to the earthquake at the last part.

DAY 1 ; 14/12/09

i woke up around 5 am in the morning and bath , getting ready to go to the airport . the van came at 6 am . after reaching , we checked in . went into the plane at 9 plus . i was shocked to see the inside of the plane , it was much different thn the last time I sat in the plane, which was two years ago . there were screens infront of each seats , touch screens infact. sdnly air asia's so rich ! xD bt too bad, we have to pay 3o bucks if we want to get any entertainments. -_- i rather on my phone and listen to songs.

my butt hurts just sitting on the plane for 4 and a half hours . i wonder how people survived sitting for 12 hours ?!

anyway , reach around 2.40 pm . took a bus to taipei main station , thn took a cab to the hotel , which is EAST DRAGON HOTEL . this hotel is really not bad , the facilities and equipments are good , and new.

i was impressed they didnt delayed the flight , instead they reach quite early. :D

and the landing is smooth , phew. thank God for a good pilot .

the airport, where we waited for our bus .

this DOG . (:

he has a job too in the airport know .

his job is to sniff whether anyone brought MEAT to the airport .

casue they say MEAT brings bacterias.

After reaching the hotel , we get ready for our first activity - xi men ding . btw, this hotel is just opposite XI MEN DING business district . there's a lot of students in this whole street . you will be able to find food , drinks , clothings , cinema's , shoe shops all around this street . this street is really big and long . mostly students will be all around this whole street . they will go with their friends after school . the whole street will be filled youngsters .

MYY , girls there are so vain . their make ups are so think . fake long lashes . -_-

you can expect almost every girl thre wears fake eyelashes.

and not only girls are vain , even guys too . they look in the mirror all the time . but i've gotta they have high fashion senses .

this is called mee suah :p

this photo was taken ar around 5 pm in the evening . their sky starts turning dark around 4 - 5 pm. it always makes me confuse , always thinking tht its already 8 pm whn the sky is dark .

NEW MOON ! actually i wanted to watch a movie at the last day since there was so much time to waste . but i didnt at last :/

my dad said their movie is translated in chinese. but i dont think so .

i watched spongebob in the hotel at night . its translated in chinese. -_- they called it ' HAI MIAN BAO BAO ' if you knw whts tht .

MILK TEA .

Beef noodles . their beefs are so nice . so tender . not like ours , so tough . -_- eat also can stick at our teeth .

if you want to eat in taiwan , i think you better taste evrything . try not to order too much . try variety .

our hotel room . their hotel rooms are not bad , quite clean . and cheap too . and vry convenient . its opposite xinmending and near the MRT station . now, you dont have to worry about yr transportation .

starting of ximending . opposite .

the hotel .

DAY 2 ; 15/12/09

first , we went to SUN YAT SEN MEMORIAL HALL . took the MRT . there wasnt really much to see . we saw the exchange of guards .

of of their primary schools .

i really envy students there . they got uniforms which are of different colours . each school have different designs .

i lost my MRT card in this place . and i went looking all over for it . it costs 50 bucks ! and my mom went to the counter and asked , and they returned my card . god, people there are so honest , unlike here . i got my card back . THANK GOD . i burned some fats / CALORIES while looking for my card :D

after SYSMH , we went to TAIPEI 101 and the mall next to the building .

christmas tree .

kentucky . so different from ours .

these people are lining up infront of this restaurant . the Q is really LONG . i wonder if the food is nice .

TAIPEI 101 .

GUESS WHAT I FOUND ?!?!?!?!

I FOUND DIANA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

TAIPEI 101 from FAR .

in the MRT .

after tht, we went to WU FEN PU , the largest garment street . you can get lost inside . you can get a lost of clothings there , but you cannot try it on bfre you buy it .

TANG BAO . theres soup inside .

idk whts this called . but thres meat inside . taste good .

the last stop for the day . RAOHE NIGHT MARKET .

famous pepper biscuit . long Q too .

theres meat and green inside . thn they put into the heater , can you see the red one in tht picture . yep, they put it inside to heat it . (:

beef noodles again . but this is GOOD . one big bowl for 5 to share . theres a lot of pepper inside . but taste good . EVERYTHING IS GOOD TO ME . :D

pictures of artist's who came here to eat bfre . and signatures on the wall .

SAUSAGES !

wht is this called in english ? OYSTER FRIED ?!
fried oyster .

stinky taufu .

the street .

the MRT is so stuffy . really , cannot breathe . so hot .

one thing, they're really systematic . they divide the escalators into two parts . those who wants to walk will be on the left side , and those doesnt wants to move will be standing on the right .

nice meh ? i drank a few sips . but i dont like it q:

# 1 Pressing the Restart button.

2009-10-29T13:50:00.001+08:00

I've deleted my old blog, and started a new one.
i thought i can use my old blog url, but sthings just not right.
there were many pictures at my old blog,
so im reposting it here, just a short post.
DONT FORGET TO LINK ME ! :D and if you want me to link you, just leave it on my c-box.

my outing with michelle, shannen, meghan, elly. (:

Belindas' wedding on 10th oct.

please dont mistaken charmaine for me, i know we do look a like. -_-

( well, not really. )

ilovethem.

ICC Concert march 09' .

3Damai 09 class picture.